The curse of candida

I have had candida for the whole time I have been ill and I thought I had got over it but just lately it has come back with a vengeance.  So I started back on candigest+ a supplement which seems to cut back the candida but at present anything I eat seems to flare up the candida, I seem to be ok for so long but then if I go mad like eating mushrooms, bread or chocolate then I have to pay for it.  I also find that taking apple cider vinegar helps there is so info on this Earth Clinic on how to take this.  It also works well for throat infections or colds so worth a try as of course it's natural.

Not doing well......

I am not doing well at moment hence been quiet on my blog, I have not much of positive to tell you just that I am in a relapse and not sure how to get myself back to where I was so I am giving myself a break till I find a solution.
I am not doing Reverse therapy anymore and I do feel that I need to get back to it as I know it helped a lot but I suffer with SAD and it has been really bad this time of year and I have no motivation at present.

Gym

I went back to the gym today after a couple of weeks not getting there, I decided to try the sat am pilates class as I was up early for once lol it went well, got talking to an elderly lady and told her I was recovering from ME and explained how I find the gym helps me, though I struggle with the classes other than pilates. I decided to try pilates on the ball, I actually managed to stay on the ball today, but made sure I stayed at level 1 as though I could have probably done level 2 I thought it was pushing it a bit and I want to feel boosted by the session not worn out.

Update

I just blogged a whole page and it's disappeared arrgggh!!!
Not typing it all again now!!
Am doing well by the way I finished Rt after 7 sessions I felt it was time to call it a day as I could not get any further or learn any more and I wanted to get down to putting it all into practise and just living now I have a life again. I don't regret doing it for one minute as I have changed so much I have a much more positive outlook on life and see where I was going wrong in the past, I am able to plan things more now without worrying will I be okay on the day as I figure even if I am not ok then it will do me good anyway as not doing stuff just makes me worse anyway and more depressed as I feel my illness is stopping me living. I have seen that exercise and ME do mix and that is actually makes me feel good if not too strenuous, I went to the local gym and signed up for a few sessions, I have only managed 3 so far, I tried the circuit training which was really too much, but got thrown in at the deep end as me and a friend went for an induction and tried out the machines next thing we were in a class of ladies who had been going for months, so you can imagine how hard that was and the instructor did not know we had literally just joined the gym so she was pushing us on and I kept saying I can't! I ached for a few days afterwards which of course is perfectly understandable, I tried the hoops, bands and a balls class which was hysterical, I could not keep the hoop up you had to do it for 15 minutes and move around the room too imagine! And the ball well I could not stay on it so nearly ended up on my head, I could not stop laughing! I will have to find a class which is more suitable like Pilates but so far not much success as they are not at convenient times, but I am sure something will work out. I have also seen the importance of speaking up if I need to, I stand up for myself more these days and don't allow myself to churn inside as it's just a matter of dealing with things as they come up rather than holding onto hurt, stress etc which only brings on symptoms. So I am a much better person and cope better. Bring it on!!!

Update

Well been a month or so since I blogged things going okay been doing pilates weekly, it's with a physio and only about 6-8 in the class so much more suited for me, hubby has gone with me too.
Last week it was hurting my thighs and calves so I could not do it all, one guy who has knee replacement said he did not know who was in more pain me or him! But next day I was fine no aching and I noticed it was only really the first session that I had quite a bit of aching afterwards, rest I've not had so shows it's getting easier. The course goes from beginners to advanced in 6 weeks, we have just 2 more to go. I am trying to do it at home too I can recommend dvd by Lynne Robinson she is really good. I even manage to use a stepper too which we have at home.
I want to keep it up after the course I might not continue there as it's not that near and prefer to go during the day than evenings. I think I might cope with another class better now I've had more experience. Sometimes I can hardly believe I am managing it when I think how little I did before, it just shows you what you can achieve if you don't let head mind worry block you.
I am also getting out more, shopping, socialising etc and it feels good. I still get awful hormonal problems but my food intolerances seems to have improved a bit, so I can eat bread a couple of times a week without too much of a reaction. Plus I have enjoyed a chocolate muffin or two which was really yummy! Still I don't want to get into eating junk though it's nice to be able to eat more stuff now and makes life easier for eating out etc. I have had some good news about a friend who has very severe ME and has been housebound for about a year and has started RT with the same therapist at me and she is getting out of the house so that has really boosted me to hear that it can help even someone in that situation. Even friends who have not seen a therapist who I have been talking to have been putting some things into practise and seen improvements. I am still having therapy not sure how much longer I will need it but trying not to stress over how many sessions I have had or how much it's costing I know I have to keep on with it as I've come so far and I've a lot further I want to go, my next session is on April 23rd.

Not well but things looking up ......

Right time for a bit of an update. I had my fifth RT session on 12th of Feb, as I had been ill for the previous few weeks I had not progressed very much so Lyn gave me the motivation I needed to get cracking again. As she said there is no point me going back in 5 weeks and not having moved on much at all, so she suggested I contact her in a couple of weeks to tell her how things are going. I have not been well at all lately, one thing after another I've had a strange rash on my face and neck and my face was burning up rang NHS direct and they said it sounded like slapped cheek disease of all things!! No idea how I got that, my skin is healing now thankfully so am not quite as embarassed in public. I went to pilates class other week, it was only my old school friend who was the instructor who I have not seen in years, I went on my own so it was good as it put me at ease there was someone I knew. I found it hard keeping up with the old ladies, one lady when doing the hamstring stretch told me to straighten my leg, which I did with a bit of agony bad idea as for a few days after I had terrible hip and leg pain so now i know to avoid that part or at least not push it. I decided it was best to look out for a beginners class and I've signed up for a 6 weeks course with a lady who is a physiotherapist and runs small groups of up to 12 ladies and I start next Wednesday evening. It's fairly local so I might be able to drive myself there, just not sure of the directions as yet. So perhaps first time I'll go with hubby and he'll wait around at nearby pub perhaps. At least everyone will be at my level not like other class where most had been going for months. Though I have done it at home using my dvd it's not the same is it? So am looking forward to that as I know when I do it it does help boost my energy.

Aerobics, what with ME???!

I have been a bit of a misery guts so rather than inflict that on you I kept it to myself for past few weeks. (I only wish my DH would have done so!) I've had a bad virus and had no energy for much at all so all my good intentions went out of the window and I became very headmindy I saw the proof that when you aren't having fun doing things etc the worry sets in again, but gave me the incentive to get back to the rt again and start doing stuff. I've been looking into if there is a pilates class locally can't find out so I decided to get cracking myself at home, I got a dvd designed for pregnant women, figured this would be gentle approach for me, it is pretty intensive all the same, I am on the first trimester exercises, I am planning to do them several times per week, they do make my muscles ache, am using muscles I had forgotten I had. I felt drained before I did them and feel better now. It gives me such a boost. I just need to stop procrastinating and get on with things. I am done with procrastinating, it only makes me frustrated and bad about myself. Last night me and DH went for a walk in the thick snow, it brought back memories of childhood, we aimed snow at each other like big kids it was fun though