Stressed out!

I've lapsed with my treatment, I hope to get back into it now as I've noticed a difference since I've not done it. Yesterday I decided to go for a walk, had a little jog too and felt better afterwards. It just shows that exercise does make you feel better even if you feel exhausted prior to it. It is hard to get out of the thinking that it can make you worse. I am going to do accupressure exercises regularly now as it really helps and I need to find ways of exercising other than outdoors with it been cold I find it hard to get myself out. I have been really stressed about dad he has to have further tests for his throat and he has a pre-cancerous condition (Barratt's oesophagus) I looked up about it and it did not help really as I am the type of person who thinks of the worst (take after dad!) so hopefully it can be treated, though I doubt it will stop dad smoking or drinking. He stopped smoking for about 6 months when he was going through radiotherapy but then when he got the all-clear he started again, on cigars though he thinks they aren't actually smoking! I will have to accept the fact he has made a choice in life though I do not like it of course it might help me stop stressing so much. Back to the body-mind techniques ......

Feeling Dreadful

One word Dreadful describes how I feel just now, I am supposed to be doing more but the weather is dreadful too (ice and snow) so I just want to stay home, besides I don't like driving at best of times nevermind now. I also have this awful PMT and it's dragging on this time so now I am going through the whirlwind of emotions of could I be pregnant as generally I am not late.
I should do my body mind technique and some pilates today as I have got out of it a bit since I last went for RT. It's hard with the SAD to motivate myself. I made some plans though for the craft group I went into local fire station to look at a room there and was able to book it for January so just to ask people now I already have asked quite a few to see if enough interest and I think I could easily get 20 people, that is how many the room seats and it is enough anyway. I hope it does not get round the cong then everyone wants to come, at least I have an excuse with the size of the room, the great thing it is free and so takes any pressure off regarding will people turn up or not, other places were £40 which was not bad but they were in old people's homes and they seemed a bit concerned about the furniture. So am really happy now and looking forward to January.

making plans

Today I have been making plans to set up a craft group for Sisters and ringing round places to hire, I am finding many are interested in such a thing it's just a matter of finding somewhere.
It is part of my therapy to make plans towards my goals, and this would be such a therapeutic thing, mix of social with craft. Hope it will come off.
I have been hyper today (hormones!) so not been resting much, nor done my pilates or techniques and I've felt the difference, tomorrow is another day you can't do it right all the time and getting over my perfectionism is part of the process!